My father’s best friend who is younger than him around 10 years accidentally fell down and passed away. What a shock and sad news for my family especially my father. When my father with his friendship can’t say is very “lou you” but he is the only friend my father close to.

Even I few this I called him “uncle”, his death really make me very sad. I am start worried about his wife, his children who are still 5 years old and 1 years old plus. How are them going to live without the protection and the care from a father. He just resigned his work and thinking of go back to his hometown so that can always stay with his family but… All the thing, happen is fate, unpredictable.
To my father and mother, I will more care you all, I will more love you all, I want make sure you all will always stay with me. I will go home more frequently to accompany you all as you all wished.

Dad, you don’t always working. Must always rest enough, I already work, you can no need work every day and no need to go outstation. You know every time you want go outstation in the night, I really don’t want you go. You will tire and not good for your health and mum has to be alone.

Mum, I like to quarrel with you in a proper way. I like to make joke with you. I know dad always didn’t accompany you to watch movie (just sleep beside you in front of TV). You always cook whatever I want to eat until dad also jealous your unfair treatment. I know you very love me and care me, I really know. I felt very blissful under the love from you all.

My sister and my brother, if can back home frequently. Take care whenever you all in. Remember, we are a family, whatever happen (happy or sad), our heart is combined. We will always stay together.

To my lovely Lim Hwa, whatever I felt (happy or sad), I also want to let you know. I don’t want to wait and wait and lastly have no chance to tell you what I felt when I am with you. I felt very xing fu when beside you. I felt miss you when u not beside me. I believed what u promise to me. (so hope you will realize your promise)

To my beloved friend, (Sayhun, Vnn Sin, Ah hui, Chiu Yi, Jia mey, Hie Ling), the time with you all, for me is really meaningful. The time in U, luckily have you all to cherish my boring study life.

I know Ah hui is very hard to survive without me this “coward” girl. Sayhun, you are most important to me, even you look like aunty but you helped me and teach me a lot of thing. Vnn Sin, very hard to imagine u this “aunty” in the house but “leng lui” outside the house. Thanks for sharing the happiness and sadness with me this 3 years. Wu gui, you are the friend make me quite worry because will be easily bullied by others and always can’t make the decision (Something your this pattern make people very irritating, try to be better, you have the qualification) Mui mui, you are the one I know much (I think, because I know u like to talk your heart word to me). Don’t put your eyes so high, can find a life partner isn’t a easy matter, maybe your fate not yet come. Don’t be sad if other say you aunty because we are “aunty” group. Hie Ling, even can’t always with you after I moved out but our friendship won’t fade out. You have accompanied me when I broke up with my boyfriend. Thanks.

To be continued…

Interview

最近，我都一直忙着找工，不知是否忽略了你呢？应该没有吧。。。我知道每当我去面试，你总会抽出时间陪我sms,要我分心，我要害怕。。。很感动哦！虽然你并没有陪在我身边但仿佛给了我很大的力量。。。记得第一次去AIA面试，我很早就到了，所以惟有在那儿等，你就一直陪我sms和不断给我爱的力量和勇气（虽然你在上班）。。。当然，世芬也很关心我，一直sms我，慰问我，但真的没想到，面试竟然进行了大约四个小时，好长噢。。。

昨天，到HSBC面试，看到好多人哦。。。真的好害怕哦。。。但你虽然很忙，你都会回我sms,一直安慰我，逗我开心，但昨天我真的等到好累，好头痛哦。。。原来，面试是那么辛苦。。。不不，应该是面试不难，等待面试很辛苦。。。

不知最近是怎样的，总是梦见你，在梦里，都是你对我的不好，对我冷淡到极点，然而很高兴的是你在现实对我还不错。。。知道你最近很忙因为你的sms少了，有时真的感觉好寂寞哦，自己无所事事，你却忙得要死。。。好怀念以前的日子哦，喜欢喜欢就见，喜欢喜欢就sms… 这世界一直变，接受吧！！！

后来，我接受了AIA的工作，原因是不想一直闲着在家等你放工回家，因为没有钱。。。但从你的口气你似乎不太喜欢我做这份工，说好像agent。。。但我知道你还是会支持我的。。。很不敢想像工作后的忙碌，更不敢想彼此的相处时间。。。很大的考验，但愿我们能顺利渡过啦。。。缘分是两方面的---你说的。。。要是有一天你发现你的心已不见了，请告诉我---我说的。。。

我知道自己傻傻笨笨，做什么东西都做不好，有时连我自己都很气自己哦。。。好害怕自己把公司的工作给搞扎哦。。。99.0 accuracy (Malaysia); 99.8 acccuracy (Hong Kong) 好恐怖哦！怕自己把公司的accuracy拉低。。。haiz~~~

两个不同世界的俩个人会长久吗？一个爱跟潮流的你；一个不爱跟风的我。。。有时很犹豫啊。。。你很努力的让我不去这样想，一直po我，让我放心。。。

妈妈昨天问我，到底你爱我多还是我爱你多，为什么都是我去找你。。。我只是带过因为这并不重要。。。曾经有人告诉我，我太依赖你了，我的确很依赖你，真的无法习惯有一天没有你的讯息，有一天不能关心你。。。我承认我太在乎你了，所以有时会让你无法呼吸。。。对不起。。。

有一天，朋友问我该如何介绍男友给父母亲呢？回想起，为何你不会带我去你家见家长呢？心想也许你认为我们之间的感情还不稳吧或我不配或你还没毕业，也许是我们的约定（还记得吗？当我们刚好回时我们说好不公开，但现在。。。哈哈！！！约定失败）

我承认自己是小气的，一点都不大方，经常为了小事跟你吵得半死，但经常都被你给说服（你嘴巴是无可否认地厉害咯）但有时，我想的并不是没道理呀。。。坦白说，我总觉得他人很喜欢贴跟你，所以一直叫你与他人保持距离，但偏偏你就是。。。每次听到他人有去，我心都会震一下。。。既然你对他人都没有防心，我还能怎样呢？！

Speechless Friends---I appreciate You All---Really

朋友的定义到底会到哪儿呢？坦白说，我有一班好朋友。。。我们能两三个月不联络或回来才一起浑的朋友。。。其实，这几年来我因为有这班朋友在默默的支持我，我才能熬到今天。。。在我最需要时守在我身边，一直陪着我，所以不管遇到多少挫折我都不会放弃我们的友情。。。谢谢你们陪我渡过的我那段伤心难过的日子。。。知道你们为了我做了很多事情，更知道你们心想什么，但我对他真的是认真的。。。我珍惜他，也珍惜你们为我所做的一切。。。有时，真的被你们的关心感动到了。。。好惭愧自己对你们都没有那么关心。。。

其实，你在我心目中并不是一文不值的。。。但我们拥有不同的想法。。。你很伟大地对身边的人却渺小了自己。。。“生日不必庆祝的”那为何你一次有一次地为他人庆祝呢？！坦白讲，我觉得你应对女朋友好一些，不要在等到失去了才来当哲学家，值得吗？是，你有你的忙，但女朋友是来疼惜，不是用来打发时间或空闲的。。。因为她对你的关心，担心远远比不了朋友。。。朋友会体谅你不常找他们，体谅你的不是（像你们对我一样）；女朋友会跟你吵架若你不找她，会认为你不关心她。。。朋友是永远的，一辈子的，但女友一旦分手了就说再见。。。我不想再看到你错过了。。。

其实，一直以来我都把你当成我的聆听者，很好的聆听者。。。但你却迟迟都找不到自己的爱情...坦白说,你是一个不错的男人,专一,长情,作你的女友应该很幸福吧,可惜有人错过了...但有些却不珍惜...很对不起你哦,对于你和他的友情...我真的不想因为我让你们的友情搞成一团糟...可是你们的出发点都是保护我... 告诉我,我应该怎样做才能让你们做回朋友?!

真的很感激你们一直不离不弃的陪在我身边,尤其是那段期间...希望我们的友情能永恒不变...Thanks you~~~

坏脾气

最近心情很不稳定哦。。。曾批评他人的脾气不好，但想想自己的脾气也好不到那里，好可悲哦～～～只要碰上自己不喜欢的事或物，就会发起脾气。。。好对不起我的家人和你喔，总是向你们发脾气。。。
坦言，我的宽容之心已经在不知不觉中不见了。。。只要一发起脾气，我就会将所有该说的，不该说的，通通泄出来，根本不顾后果。。。好想说，只要我说了，心就不会那么沉重。。。我受不起心事重重，更想让你明白我在想什么。。。但往往都被你的一堆理由给推翻。。。
知道自己很笨，做事情总是做不好，经常将好好的事情给搞砸，也经常成为你的笑话。。。但我就是怎样都做不好。。。为何我那么笨，还说是大学生呢，真是笑话。。。
很想念以往的日子噢。。。单纯的思想，总不会觉得他人有心机。。。人长大了，烦恼多，想得更多。。。若能回到当初无忧无虑地日子多好呢。。。人为何要长大？！